http://whitechild.freechipz.com/ Keeping it real fr http://whitechild.freechipz.com/2008/08/27/my-wife-my-rock.html Went to visit my dad last night in ICU. It was not great seeing him in such a bad state. I got quite emotional. The nurses tried their best to give me some positive words, but in truth, I just wanted them to go away. I tend to retain my emotions to myself, have done so my entire life. I never show those adjacent to me how I’m really feeling. But last night it became a bit much. I decided to show my wife how I feel as well as share myself with her on behalf of the first time since we have been combined (11 years as well as counting). What an amazing experience! She did not endeavour to tell me it’s all going to be ok. She listened, held me as well as cried with me. This took us so much closer. I found myself saying to her that I can’t do this on my own, that I require her in this, at the end of which she ran me a bath as well as washed my back. This was exactly what I needed. I came to realize that God made us one, not just from an intimacy p.o.v., but in times it matters most. I would in the past at all times be the first to say that God has joined us in spirit, but last night I realized as well as experienced the extent of this gift. Today I look at our relationship with new eyes. She is my rock. My love. Sometimes our stubbornness stand in the way of true blessings. It’s not about changing who we are, it’s about letting go. I have to admit, I shall still not do this in front of friends or family, but being able to do this in front, as well as with my wife, accepting her support, opened a new door on behalf of me in life, one I thought could not be opened. The result, today I feel free, as if a heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Today, I thank God on behalf of all his blessings. Wed, 27 Aug 2008 20:41:01 -0400 whitechild